Sunday, March 20, 2011
Finally I had a day for myself.
To be honest, since I started working, I seldom had break. I spent most of my time and my attention to my job. Since this is my first job, I always make sure that I am performing well and I need to finish my all task.
However, I don't like my life. Sometimes I felt like I'm a machine. I spent almost 12 hours working a day. Sometimes I never see my parents for a few days. My home is like a hotel to me.
Finally I decided to get crazy for 1 day. Skipped the youth leadership training this morning. Spent most of the day on the things I used to do back in uni time. Surfing the website that I used to go, try some new recipe and sleep.
It is already 6am now. I felt tired but I don't want to sleep. Instead, I feel like I'm back to the uni kids whom I am allowed to be crazy and wild.
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Yes, all these while I'm being super rational.
That is why I can impress my boss and get the position I'm holding.
That is why I can having the stupid daily routine which make me hate my life.
and that is way I seems okay even it is now 8 months and 5 days since we broke up.
Sigh...to be honest, i still feel the pain. Yet, I choose to be rational. And I'm almost getting crazy just to keep myself always rational and doing the right thing.
AARRRGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
6:03 AM
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