Thursday, November 29, 2007
Lately I start to be active again in a local christian forum. Yesterday was talking to 2 fellows and trying to help them out in their life. But then today something happened which really discouraging and I finally voice out my wish to withdraw and we had a short conversation.
Today I woke up around quite late and I missed out the 1st lecture and I was thinking if I should go for my second lecture which I know it doesn't help much for my final. But I have a strong feeling that urge me to go so I went there. And once I entered classroom, my classmates asked me to take the exams slip with them. And soon I realised I cant sit for Simulation semester final exams. I was shocked because my course tutor promised me before the semester starts and my lecturer Mr. Liew actually helped me to double confirmed if I can proceed which the answer is yes as well. But why I don't have authourization to sit for exams?
I tried to called Mr Liew, but I think he finally departed. He is on a 10 days leave. I can't really recall who Mr Liew went to. I smsed him also no reply. So I moved on to Dr Ngerng, my course tutor. After he sent me the e-mail before semester starts, then no more reply even I e-mailed me for a few times. He wasn't there even thou I looked for him for a few times.
I went up to DSA and from there I only know that he is also on leave. Nobody knows when he is coming back and as I know he is currently rushing for his own research. Haih. Finally I got advise from FGO and they asked me to look for Dr. Goh my Head of Department. Been waiting for him for around half an hour and caught him on his half way going back. We had a very very short conversation and I have to hand in appeal letter as soon as possible.
I feel discouraging as this is not my first time to have such thoughts to just quit. Since year 1 sem 2, I am thinking of withdraw till today. I wish to quit not because I think I failed just one paper but personally I know that most probably after I graduate, I won't look for a job in this field. But I face a bigger problem now which is I don't know if I can graduate or not. What a silly questions, of course I can graduate, just depends on how many years it takes me to graduate.
Pray for me la. I lost the motivation to continue my course. I just pray that I am growing on the right path He arranged for me.
Thanks for your patience to finish reading this crapping thing.
God Bless U n ME...
written by, Xiang2Jian4...
8:20 PM